monday not fun day

so today was long. got lots of compliments on the bangs so that made me happy! but it was a chilly day, which put me in a weird mood given the fact that it wasn't expected AT ALL. and some guy in my public speaking class gave the most awkward speech that made me SUPER DUPER uncomfortable. and another girl showed us a picture from a car accident she had a few years ago that was super gory. ugggggh. i cringed. anywayssssss

im getting a little stressed out about initiation. okay that was a lie. REALLY STRESSED OUT. but hopefully it will come together soon. 

im procrastinating. i think i might just go to bed. wake up early. do work then. its only the 2nd week at school. this is not okay. 

simply sleep is calling my name. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

schmee is doing her spanish homework and its funny. 

God's blessing of the day: the first feeling of fall.....crisp breeze....needing a jacket...getting goosebumps. i like fall. i love that God gave us the changing of the seasons! what a treat! 

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 (from Biblegateway.com)

 ¹ There is a time for everything, 
       and a season for every activity under heaven:

 ² a time to be born and a time to die, 
       a time to plant and a time to uproot,

 ³ a time to kill and a time to heal, 
       a time to tear down and a time to build,

 ⁴ a time to weep and a time to laugh, 
       a time to mourn and a time to dance,

 ⁵ a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, 
       a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

 ⁶ a time to search and a time to give up, 
       a time to keep and a time to throw away,

 ⁷ a time to tear and a time to mend, 
       a time to be silent and a time to speak,

 ⁸ a time to love and a time to hate, 
       a time for war and a time for peace.

bloom kinda weekend

i had a fun weekend! after a grueling first week of school with 8 ams every single day, i got to go home this weekend for the first time in AWHILE! it was so nice to sleep in my own bed and be in my house. 

friday was karly's 21st birthday so i got to be with her and her family. we wen to dinner down at lumiere place which took awhile, but it was so fun. then we went to a bar, which karly and i are not good at. we like our sleep. but it was fun!

saturday morning i was able to sleep and snuggle with little lou! then i got my hair cut. i was planning on chopping it all off given the fact that it is SOOO long. but. i chickened out. i got it trimmed and got some side bangs. im such a loser. 

saturday night was karly's dad's 50th birthday bash which was a blast. my mom came with me and we had such a great time. i got to catch up with all my friends parents and the house was decorated so cool. mom and i had a really great time.

(karly and me at the hawaii five-o party)

today, didn't get to make it to church. i left town pretty quickly to get back for cc at 1:30, but i had a good drive home. i blasted the mamma mia soundtrack the entire way and sang at the top of my lungs. it actually went really fast. started feeling sick this afternoon, so i am going to go to bed SUPER early to try to kick it. i cannot get sick, i cannot get sick, i cannot get sick. 

God's blessing of the day: a safe drive back to columbia, and a wonderful phone call from my freshman year roommate! i had not talked to her all summer and it was so great to hear her voice. GOD IS GOOD! i love those kind of phone calls.

(throwback! miss her sooo much!)

now, i must sleep.

i cannot get sick, i cannot get sick, i cannot get sick.

technology grrrr

as i sit here typing, my iphone is restoring its settings because as it was downloading the new software, an error occurred and everything on my phone was deleted.

here's the good news: for some reason, today i decided to upload the pictures from my iphone to my computer....some which included pictures of me and grandma or fun texts i had received from people or anything. i am so glad that i did that! i would be so upset if those pictures were gone. yay yay hooray.

i also found out that some of my dear dear friends go to veritas in columbia, the college group for the crossing church here (a church planted my GTCC in stl!). 

i am just getting lovely signs every where today.

today in itself was rather hum drum. i got some work done. class went well. got to relax in bed. but those few instances make me feel much better! 

it's also raining. which is nice because i feel like the day is cleansing itself. jsut like my iphone. maybe its time for me to let everything wash off of me too. i even let myself have a 2 minute cry this afternoon. i was looking through pictures and found such a lovely picture of grandma helen watering her plants. i think i took it sometime last summer.

everything today has fit that theme, water washing away everything. the picture came right before the rain. right before the tears. maybe grandma is up in heaven because she wants me to know that she is up there, washing away certain sad feelings i still have. she is nurturing me and my life, letting me know that she is still here with me, watching out for me. 

i get to go home tomorrow. it will be a fun weekend. im excited to sleep in my bed again, and get those last minute things at home that i left there a few weeks ago. i think i also need to spend more time with my mommy. there is just something that tells me i might need her this week. i feel a big cry coming on soon. 

but for now, i press on and know i'll be alright. 

oh my phone just reactivated....didn't even THINK about the fact that all my applications are gone now too. money down the drain. this stinks. 

God's blessing of the day: the rain. Let us acknowledge the LORD; let us press on to acknowledge him. As surely as the sun rises, he will appear; he will come to us like the winter rains, like the spring rains that water the earth." -hosea 6:3

blahhhh

i was feeling rather optimistic this morning. i had a good night's sleep and woke up early to get my day started. love those 8 ams....and class went fine. i'm one of two juniors in my public speak class, which is sort of awkward but whatever. the hardest part came when i was walking back to the house. that is usually the time that i call grandma helen. i loved to call her in between classes every day. "hi sweet pea" "hi sweet holly" "hi precious girl" i miss those comments. she would always tease me about how i sounded like i was out of breath on the phone. "honey are you walking fast? you sound of out breath" "oh grandma you know me, i hate walking slow." she would ask me about my classes and if i had done all my homework, what i was doing the rest of the day...we would chat about a funny thing that happened to me or what she had planned for the day, "well lady ate another bag of oreos..." she mostly would just listen to me. grandma was the BEST listener in the world. i would complain about everything or call her crying bc i failed an econ test or because i made a fool of myself on the first day of classes. whenever something went wrong, i could always call her. i knew that she would happily answer my phone call and calm me down instantly. and then end her phone call with "bye now" "bye grandma love you" "bye honey i love you" "love you more grandma" "honey please hang up the phone" "no grandma you hang up the phone first." sometimes i would just stay on the line to hear the line click to know that she was off the phone. i think one time we stayed on the phone silently for at least a minute, giggling under our breath that neither of us would hang up.

that's the stuff i miss. it's the walking to class and not hearing her voice. its not having that sweet little laugh in my ear. i miss her. 

so far, since its only 10:30 am, here is God's blessing: calling and talking to my sweet cousin on the phone, knowing that she would understand my missing of grandma.

longest day of my life

today literally was the longest day of my life. my only breaks were lunch and dinner for like an hour total. it was insane. finalllllly i can go to bed because august 19th is over! WAHOOOO!

God's blessing of the day: my sorority's 100% return rate and the healthy body i have (that is super sore now). life is good! God is good!

special prayers go out right now to my friend betsy's family as well as my roommate's family please. thanks!

august 18, 2009=blahhhhh

long day. met some great girls. im tired. i need a good nights sleep. 

the worst part is knowing that tomorrow is going to be even longer....gahhhhhh. im ready for some normal stuff in my life. like school and naps. teehee.

and i miss my mom. it just seems like it's been forever. moms are the best.

and it is time for me to do laundry. anyone have extra quarters to give a broke college kid? 

God's blessing of the day: meeting the sweetest girl during recruitment who went to kanakuk for 5 years. she has a heart of gold. i can already tell! 

where did it go?

so my mother informed me that i had not updated my blog in awhile, so here i go:

after 4th of july, my summer was filled with:

• a trip to las vegas and los angeles with my mother! BEST TRIP EVER
• watching my uncle peter perform a FANTASTIC show at the catalina jazz club in hollywood.
• working again for a little bit
• refiguring my paycheck
• attempting to fly and see my uncle junior and aunt grace...sad it didn't happen.
• 2 cop run ins on a single night. it was awful. i hate my neighbor.
• coldplay concert.
• baseball games with friends and pete too.
• seeing the beatles love show in vegas.
• cici's pancakes...amazing. highly recommended!
• a trip to cabo. 
• seeing two fist fights.
• starting a new needlepoint belt
• reading the shack! PLEASE READ IT! ITS AMAZING! http://theshackbook.com/
• starting but not finishing eat pray love.
• having a weird dream about chelsea handler.
• reconsidered changing my major for the 40th time.
• decided on communications, but not officially. 
• watched mom pour endless hours to cleaning our basement because it flooded.
• finding endless notes from grandma in my room.
• the bachelorette all the way till the end
• hanging out with my favorite roomie and drinking riesling. 
• pasta house dinner with mary and kc....all you can eat pasta for 11 bucks.
• hanging out at westwood country club with mary and kc.
• getting my teeth cleaned
• did not do practically any baking and am now depressed because of it.
• saw the ugly truth...dumb.
• watched marley and me...for the billionth time. amazing.
• watched time quickly pass.
• got a new smoker at the house and love it.

can't think of much else. but i think its enough. it was a great summer. bittersweet. but good. 

now i am all moved into my room! it is really cute. much more spacious. walk in closet. HELLO IM IN LOVE! just trying to decorate it.

didn't have enough pillows and finally caved in and bought more last night. i still need like a billion things from home. 

recruitment is going well. work week was WAY better than last year. given the circumstances of last year, i don't know how it couldn't not be better. 

in a weird way, it's nice to return to the same school. that sounds odd, but it is true. i feel so blessed to have the friends here that i do. i feel loved and special, and that is a truly wonderful thing. 

i need to sleep. now. exhaustion is taking over.

i'm gonna start a new thing at the end of each post and kinda just make it a little quick note on a special part of my day.

God's blessing of the day: meeting wonderful new freshman girls. i wish them all the best of luck this week.