very interesting week/end. girls can be such CRAZY fighters. it doesn't make any sense. i love the fact that i am female and have emotions, but sometimes i gotta lock them down, and that did not happen last week.
we had greek week! of course i am not involved in it very much. i just have way too much on my plate. plus...sports...not really my thing. but we got second! wahoo!
went home last weekend for my cousin's engagement party. im excited for the wedding. it should be fun. i do wish peter could go though...but that was another story in itself. im so rude for asking him!! brush it off brush it off brush it off.
saturday morning i had an interview with a local magazine that did not go as well as planned. unfortunately i am a baby journalist. no portfolio, no briefcase, no tricks up my sleeve. that did not help me at all. although i did get called back for a second interview....absolutely surprised. unfortunately its tomorrow while i have class and i cant go. this is just God's way of telling me that it isn't part of my summer plans.
i dont know what is though. a local bakery perhaps? a photography class? yoga? running? summer school? i have a lot of ideas yet no direction. i need to get some soon though.
i signed up for classes next semester....3 comm classes and 1 psych class. should be interesting. obviously i will take a spanish course as well so we'll see. every day will begin at 8 am for me...new change of pace.
what else what else.
the semester is wrapping itself up. group projects, final meetings, living situations, grated nerves, spring fever. i'm just ready for summer---hot dogs, white wine, lemonade, the smell of sunscreen, bob and gracie in the pool, late sunsets, long nights, sleeping in, sweat, air conditioning, the hotness of the inside of a car, flip flops and shorts, big beach towels, bob marley, friends, birthdays, cardinals games, the feel of the grass against your ankles....the sheer excitement of many new opportunities. summer is HOPE! it is rejuvenation, which is what i am craving at this point...as well as ice cream. i get to see my boyfriend every day, hang in the sun with my friends, frolic in my AMAZING pool and live life at ease. aaaaah i am getting too excited at the prospect of summer on my horizon.
speaking of horizons, still worried about my future. what am i going to do with my life??
grandma is doing okay. i just love her so much. she is such a gentle, kind and wonderful soul. the world needs more of her. but i think she is in so much pain and is beginning to let go. she is ready to go home to heaven. selfishly, i just want her here. death will cause a separation and i dont know how i will cope with it. i literally dont know how. grandma is my rock. she is a warm smile and open arms, she is small and wrinkly, with her soft gray hair and her hopeful eyes. there is no one like her in the world. i continually press into my faith at this point. God will take her when He and she are ready, and i'm not really factored in the equation. i just hope i get to see her again someday. i'm freaking myself out....time for some therapy.
tomorrow is a new day, with new hopes and promises. life is a ride and i need to let go. i'll never get out alive.
hope the april showers wash away my worries and with may comes beauty, truth and happiness.
